Big Fish In A Little Pond

Right now, I'm sitting in my room and I am feeling rather restless.
It's a mixture of boredom and hopelessness.  Bored because there is nothing to do and hopeless because the future does not seem that bright at the moment.
Have you ever felt that you were much better than the life you were leading?  That you were destined for bigger things?  Every time your fingers brush against that success, something seems to pull you away from it... So you end up feeling like there is nothing much you can do.
Right now I feel like I should be somewhere else, living my life and making the wrong decisions that will put me on the right path when the time comes... but here I am... sitting in my room.
There is so much more out there for me but I do not know what it is.  I still don't know what I want to do with my life... I'm just going with the flow to keep my parents happy but I'm not.  I know that they have worked their asses off to get me where I am today but how do I tell them that I do not want to do this?  I still do not know what I want to do.  I have an idea of what I want to do but it would be seen as a waste of time.  I don't know why I am still trying to live for other people instead of myself.
I feel so compressed that the more I stay in one place the more my passion to leave will fade away.  I just want to get away before I become even more hopeless.
It's time for me to take a stand and take back my life and stop living according to how people want me to live.  It will take some time for me to actually make it happen but I know that when the time is right, I will catch that ship of opportunity and I am going to sail away on it...
I am so much better than this...

Summer Happyness

I know it's five or six months before the Summer but everytime i think about it, I feel nostalgic and excited for the summers to come.
Summer has to be my favourite time of the year.  I used to think that I was more of a Winter person but then as I grew up, I just realised that the Summer made me happier and things are just brighter and better in the Summer.  I don't know if it's just me but in Summer you feel more adventurous and you find yourself doing insane things with your friends and everything is just relaxed.
So I found this video of the Kings of Leon called Back Down South and it just made me think of the summer times and how life should be fun and to forget your troubles for another day.  This video reminds me of the sleepy old "town" of Port Elizabeth where the kids here have to entertain themselves when clubbing has just grown old and boring... check it out.  Totally a summer video.  It's just a happy video and you can feel the vibe just from watching it...