You Will Be The Death Of Me

I have always known that you were bad news but I just couldn't resist.  I was even warned a number of times that you were not good for me.
At every party that I went to, you were there.  From across the room, I could hear your silent call, daring me to come over.  Being the coward that I am, I always resisted.  A friend would want to introduce me to you but I always resisted and shied away...
Somehow things seemed to change.  I wanted to get to know you.  I don't know what it is with good girls and "bad boys".  We are just attracted to "bad boys" like moths to a light...
I convinced a friend to officially introduce us and I decided that I liked having you around.
I could not wait to see you and everytime that I saw you, my day seemed to brighten up.  I was enjoying your company.
I was happy.  You made me happy.
I wanted to be happy all the time.  I was tired of the darkness and sadness when you weren't there.  I wanted to be with you all the time.  Soon, I had you with me every single day.  Even if it was for a little while, you brightened up my day.
I was in bliss and I wanted that feeling to last me forever but why couldn't other people understand?  Why were they jealous of what I had with you?  They kept telling me that you were bad for me and I needed to get out before it was too late for me.  It was all lies.  They were lying to me.  I know that you would never hurt me... I did not need them.  It's my life, they must butt out.  This was between me and you...
It was me and you against the world.  Nothing anyone could say would ever change that... You were all that I needed...
I needed more of you and you kept making me happy.  You and I had become One.  You were everywhere with me...
Life became darker and nothing you did could make me any happier.  You were just there but you had no effect on me any more.  The more I needed you, the harsher you became with me.  The bruises and scars you left on my body and the memor lapses that left me confused and alone scared me.
I needed help but you wouldn't allow me to get helped.  You silenced my cries for help.  I was dying slowly and painfully.  Your poison creeping through my body, killing everything it came across.
I needed to get away from you.  You would not let me.  I was your prisoner.  Yet I loved you still.
I knew you were bad for me but I still needed you.
I can't let go knowing that you will be the death of me...
I don't want to die yet, I'm still too young but I don't want to lose you...
You are my addiction...

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MISSING

This song has been the theme to my life for a very long time. 
It just sums up what I am feeling inside and how I see things from my piont of view and state of mind...

This is MISSING by EVANESCENCE

Whispered:
Can you stop the fire?
Can you stand to fight her?
You cant stop the fire,
you wont say the words.

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Whispered:
Can you stop the fire?
Can you stand to fight her?
You cant stop the fire,
you wont say the words.

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out;
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something.......

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Whispered:
Can you stop the fire?
Can you stand to fight her?
You cant stop the fire,
you wont say the words.

Be Careful Of The Snake In The Grass

I've always known how mean girls can be but it never really occurred to me just how mean.  Sorry but some people just deserve the title of BITCH!
I went to an all girls school and I didn't really like it and I thought that when I got to university I would leave all that drama behind me but I guess some people never really grow up.
What I do not understand is how a person who calls themselves a "friend" can go and be all nice to your face but then as soon as you are out of sight, they go and spread all this nasty stuff about you.
When it comes to guys, that's when the real claws come out.
A person who's been your friend for a long time can go and sleep with your boyfriend while you guys are still going out 9I've seen it happen).  Or maybe, you really like this guy and you've also been getting some vibes from him and you tell your friends and then next thing you know, you hear they hooked up at that party that you could not go to.
Do you still call a person who does that a friend?
Ever heard of the term "FRENEMIES"?
A frenemy is a combination of friend and enemy.  So you are not really friends with that person, they are just acquantainces.  What is the point in that friendship.  It's just lame.  I think I'd rather be lonely than have a friendship like that.  It's just impossible to be friends with someone you can't trust...

Here are some lyrics by O-Town:

Girl, I remember how it all began
You introduced her as your friend
But I knew I was in trouble when
I saw her smile at me
And then she asked me for a dance
But never offered you a glance
Well let me tell you girl with friends like that
Who needs enemies

Chorus:
Should've known better than to trust a friend
Who's jealous of the way were livin'
I don't think you know what's happening
Your girl is shading you
Should've known better than to trust a friend
Behind your back she gives me rhythm
But I'm 'bout to make her understand
I only dance with you

Girl, you say your friend is just flirting by
It's getting so ridiculous
That she's thinking she can mess with us
But I don't play around
Even when she's saying that you're well aware
And it's cool with you to share
No I still ai't gonna dance with her
I'm telling you right now

Chorus:
Should've known better than to trust a friend
Who's jealous of the way were livin'
I don't think you know what's happening
Your girl is shading you
Should've known better than to trust a friend
Behind your back she gives me rhythm
But I'm 'bout to make her understand
I only dance with you

Don't try to say I lost my mind
I know your girl has crossed the line (cause I really know that)
She got issues, she trying to diss you
The minute that you turn around
She pulled a switch boo
Cause she's wishing what's yours was hers
So now leave the girl, that ain't never gonna work

Chorus:
Should've known better than to trust a friend
Who's jealous of the way were livin'
I don't think you know what's happening
Your girl is shading you
Should've known better than to trust a friend
Behind your back she gives me rhythm
But I'm 'bout to make her understand
I only dance with you

Should've known girl not to trust a friend
Should've known jealous of how were livin'
Should've known I was shading you
Only dance with you

Chorus:
Should've known better than to trust a friend
Who's jealous of the way were livin'
I don't think you know what's happening
Your girl is shading you
Should've known better than to trust a friend
Behind your back she gives me rhythm
But I'm 'bout to make her understand
I only dance with you

Ohh oh ohhh
I only dance with you....
Ohh oh ohhh
I only dance with you....

That's just something to think about next time you feel like something dodgy is going down....